Poem: Lonely

This is to anyone out there who’s listening.
People talk about loneliness.
Like it’s just a rainy day.
The change of the weather or the season.
Something they heard about once whilst reading a magazine in the doctors surgery.
Or on the back of the cereal box.
While let me tell you about loneliness.
I’ve felt it.
Tasted it.
Lived it, breathed it and bled it.
I’ve not just worn the fucking T-Shirt – it was bloody tattooed on my skin.
But no one saw it – cause no one saw me.
No one saw the loneliness or even the freckles on my face.
Thanks for listening.
Garden, Personal

Building a Kids Playhouse

Since moving into our house five years ago we’ve been wanting to do some work in our garden, my wife and I see the garden as one of those parts of the house that isn’t urgent. There are normally more pressing areas of the house that need work doing to for either maintenance or because something gone wrong. Then there are of course – bills, the car and my wife’s hobby which is going on holiday. Obviously don’t complain about holidays but they keep her and the kids happy and give us good memories. 2015-05-03 13.46.21

However that doesn’t leave much room for the garden.
This year we promised ourselves that we would buy our two daughters a playhouse for he garden, we wanted it to be something that would fit in with our own tastes and so after much research we came across the “BillyOh – Junior Tower Playhouse – Budget – 4x6ft”. Now when they say budget it’s not exactly cheap and costs around £200 which to most families isn’t pocket-money so we have to put some cash away for it over a couple of months.

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Once we were ready we purchased it from Homebase who delivered it fairly quickly, no more than two weeks. The boxes they arrive in are quite big so you’ll have to consider how long it will be before it arrives that you will be able to assemble it.

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Now I read the reviews on Homebase’s website and the assembly time seems to range from 8 hours to over a week. Now I’m quite lucky that my father-in-law is a builder and knows what he’s doing. He managed to assemble playhouse with on the odd issue in three hours. So this is something you should think about, the instructions do recommend two people and he pretty much did it on his own except when I had to hold a piece or two whilst he screwed it in. So I did my normal duty of looking after my little girls whilst we all watched it being assembled in front of us but for someone without a builder in the family I would be prepared to start this pretty early on a Saturday to give yourself the weekend – just in case.

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There were some comments on Homebase’s site about wood splitting which is true that the off piece did split which is disappointing but overall we’re all really pleased with the outcome. The playhouse feels nice a sturdy and the kids love playing in it. Just remember on thinner pieces of wood to go carefully to avoid splitting.

Our plan for the playhouse is to relocate it at the other end of the garden, we have just bought ourselves a summerhouse but need to get the slabs and once they’re laid we will then relocate then and put up our summerhouse.

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Our kids are really enjoying the playhouse, I would say our youngest (who is almost two) enjoys it more but think once she is older our oldest will have someone to play in there with and we’ll probably never see them.

Please let me know in the comments if you have one and your kids are enjoying it or if you’re considering purchasing one and have any questions.

Food, Health

A Healthy Start To The Day

One of my main personal goals last year was to get another job and progress at work, this was something that I put a lot of work into. I used a lot of time outside of work, I got help from mentors, kept my PDP up to date, completely rewrote my CV, spent time raising my profile and improving my skills by working on feedback and spending time in different areas of the business.

You’ll be pleased to know I succeeded in this goal. I had other goals last year that were more sub goals – one of which was improving my health and losing weight.

My biggest enemy was energy drinks. About 15 years ago when Redbull first hit the streets I started drinking it and roughly 4 years ago I used to drink 4/5 a day which is just insane. Over the years I’ve managed to get down to one energy drink a day and now I’ve got it down to none a day.

Most work day morning my day would consist of starting of an energy drinks along with a sausage sandwich breakfast of some kind and a lot of this was due to disorganisation on my part so over the last 12 months I have been improving things and now wanted to share with you what I do instead:

The Drink:



I like to start the day to work with a drink and I find that buying a hot drink is normally a couple of quid and doesn’t reach drinking temperature until you reach your desk which defeats the point in them so another reason why I went for energy drinks.
I recently decided to make a hot drink at home and drink it on my commute to work. I’ve found this really wakes me up and gives me a good start to the day.

The Breakfast:


As for breakfast over the last 12 months I’ve begun having porridge which I find fills me up until lunch time. I’m not someone who can get by on a slice of toast or a bowl of cereal and need something a little bit more filling.

I like to have my porridge quite thick and tend to use two portions from the Quaker Oats boxes. I’ve recently started to add bananas and blueberries to this and have found that this gets me through from 8am till 1pm without needing any snacks but I really enjoy this. All in all this is a tasty, cheaper and far healthier start to the day.

I feel quite good about having sorted out my mornings and just need to continue with improving my healthier eating throughout 2015 as my main goal is to become healthier and lost three stone.

Please let me know what you’ve done to improve your diet so far this year.


Going Forward On My Blog…

It’s crazy to believe that almost four years ago I setup my own blog and shortly after converted to my own URL. A few months back I took down a lot of the posts as I didn’t feel happy with them and as most of your know I setup Geeks Unleashed three years ago and lot of attention goes over there but I’ve always felt that I wanted to keep this site alive but I just didn’t know how.

Over the Christmas / New Year period where I enjoyed a good 11 days off to spend with family. During that period I was lucky enough to get Fujifilm FinePix S4800 which is just a starter camera really but it triggered my artistic side to be re-energised.

Through school and college I studied Art and Design up to GNVQ level and although it was something that I enjoyed I decided to pursue as a career. My creative side has never left me though as I still enjoy writing but just neglected my other artistic interests.

So going forward I felt like I wanted a clean slate on my blog and even considered relaunching the site under a different name but I do really like owning my own .com. The kind of content I want to cover will no longer by restricted to just writing – I want to talk about cycling, food, photography, stationary, travelling and anything inbetween.